September 15, 2005 - 3:41 p.m.
<It's been a very good month
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I know I haven't written in almost a month. This is a travesty because unlike lazy days of summer, this past month has been the first month of school, jam-packed and therefore busting with things I want to record. Of course, I'll forget some as I write this and abbreviate some and disregard some. But it's been great.
The weekend before school started, Darren and I drove 3 1/2 hours to a county fair in Lima, Ohio, to see a Meat Loaf concert. It was
fantastic and worth every second. You could tell he was getting old, because his voice wasn't as powerful and his pauses were longer, but he's still amazing and I was in complete awe of what I had experienced. We also did fair-like things, eating funnel cakes and riding rides, and made our way home. I spent the night in his apartment and in the morning we ate at Bob Evan's before I drove back to Louisville.
I really, really miss him being in Lexington. And with gas so astronomically high because of the hurricane, I simply can't afford to go and see him all the time. He's been home a few times, and he's coming home this weekend, but all the plans we made together (seeing a movie, going dancing, going to church, entering the pipe-smoking contest in the Jeffersontown Gaslight Festival), he has slowly replaced me with this girl Katie that he's trying to woo. If he had asked me if it would be okay if he did these things with her instead of me, I would understand and be fine. But he just started talking about when he and Katie go see the movie, when he and Katie go to church, etc. I miss him so much and I was so unbelievably happy about him coming home for the weekend.
School started the following Monday, there isn't a whole lot to say about that. I'm taking 19 hours this semester: Latin, Archaeology, Greek, Abnormal Psychology, Fencing, Linguistics, and Desktop Publishing. I'm also going to be the co-consul (read: co-president) of Eta Sigma Phi with Sean!
Ramsey came home that Tuesday, and gave me a big crucifix necklace that he got in Peru. While I feel weird wearing it because I feel like I look like a holy roller, at the same time I hate when I realize I forgot to put it back on after my shower and am forced to go all day without it. I like it because it's from him. And the chain is long enough that the crucifix actually hides in my bosom most of the time, so it's not that big of a deal.
Ever since he's been back, things have been a lot better. I don't know if he's suddenly changed, or if he just has more of a set schedule now that we're back in school, but I don't feel like I have to chase him down anymore. If he doesn't answer when I call, I have faith that I'll soon talk to him - I don't have to worry that I won't see him for a week. Sometimes he just calls me in the mornings to say hi, which is kind of weird - I'm not one that can just say hi on the phone for two minutes without there really being a purpose - but it is really nice to see his name when my phone starts to ring. We see each other just enough now - a few times a week - that I don't have to pine away for him, but I don't have to always be thinking about him, either. I don't know how to say, that it's just been so nice since he's been back. Did his going away do something? I don't know. But sometimes little things happen and I know we're growing closer, and that's perfect. He gave me a book yesterday, kind of for no reason, and inscribed it in Greek. It took me about a half hour to read what it said, because I had to look up almost every word and ask him about a few forms, since I've only been taking it a few weeks (I came in a week late). But I kind of like that I had to work for it. And silly as it sounds, it was a lot sweeter in Greek. That's an intimacy that not the whole word is in on. We spent last Saturday running around trying to find new pets - he wanted an aquarium, I wanted a new beta fish and was thinking about parakeets. In the end, we both had to hold off (although he's already got his aquarium, I'm still saving up, because setting up two parakeets will cost me about $60!), but I liked doing menial things with him. We went to a Hawaiian party at Emily's at night, and spent the night at his house. I like just laying in bed with him, I like just touching him and hearing him.
The weekend after school started, I went to Kansas for Kara Douglass's wedding. A lot of our relatives came, most notably for me were Anne, Joanna, Tommy, and Paul. Saturday morning we all met at breakfast, and spent the late morning/early afternoon walking along the main street. It was definitely a college town (walking distance from Kansas University), and we stopped in coffee shops, art galleries, and hip little stores. Most notably, was the near-hour we spent in a second hand book store, called, if I remember correctly, the "Dusty Bookshelf". It was by far the best used book store I've ever encountered, with big chairs and a big cat. We all retreated to the seperate little corners that interested us the most. I made a whole stack I was interested in, but in the end only bought two books because of lack of funds -
Private Parties and
A Dictionary of Literary Terms, which doesn't sound exciting but is actually exactly what I've wanted for so long. I loved seeing us come out in our selections - Anne with her science books, me with a book of short stories and a book about grammar, Joanna with obscure history books, and Paul and Tommy with their political and social books.
The wedding was in the afternoon, and the reception was fine enough - but with little dancing. We did what we could bear, but it was a little awkward to only be a few of us dancing up there. Dad asked me to dance once, and then uncles and neices all started dancing, but after only a minute or two the photographer pulled us away for a Schroder family picture.
A few weekends ago, Emily and I were in Target during the day and found glowstick jewelry. I bought a few pairs of earrings and bracelets, and put them in my purse. Sean was to have a party that night, but they ended up cancelling it and it was just the three of them, Blakesly, and I. I busted out the glowsticks and we turned off the lights and started dancing to old music. It was absolutely fantastic.
I can't wait to get my birds. I can't wait to have something to come home to, and to walk into my sunroom and into their soft chattering.
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